my annoyingly specific creepypasta headcanons
Chapter 2: Jeff the Killer

Originally written 10 October 2023

(note: this fic is also up on AO3.)

JTK:

• #actuallyschizophrenic
• Jeff Woods is about 22-25 years old as of 2023 (having been 13 years old in 2011-2014, however a canon birthdate isn’t provided by any original sources) while Jeff Hodek is presumably in his late 20s or 30s. I only make the distinction because I use both the 2011-2014 crpa and Sesseur as sources to form HCs, but the former is the only source that’s explicit about his age.
• extremely cognitively impaired. He’s generally either unable to learn new things or finds it so difficult to try he becomes inconsolably enraged. His memory is all over the place, frequently warped by his near-constant state of psychosis. While he has an easier time remembering semantic facts (dates, names, etc) compared to episodic memories, facts too can become warped in his mind, especially any having to do with himself, his past, or people he’s known.
• He’s half blind and can just barely move his eyes. He no longer feels any pain from this, as his eyes are numb to the touch; the only reason they haven’t shriveled up and fallen out of his skull is because of the supernatural will to physically maintain that effects all proxies. He lacks peripheral vision and sees only blurry shapes through a dark film. It’s hard for him to detect movements or lights through sight alone.
• Can you say THOUGHT DISORDER? In conversation, his brain is screaming to end the interaction as quickly as possible (his preferred method of doing so is murder) because of how mentally taxing it is for him to form coherent sentences and communicate. He interacts with other proxies the least and avoids people in general. Rather than speaking or writing he prefers to communicate via staring and making expressions or gesticulating with props, especially weapons. When he does speak, his schizoaccent goes from completely flat and hollow to a vaguely Philadelphia accent; he’ll make up words for the ones he forgets, use ‘slang’ that’s obviously a confused amalgamation of unrelated phrases he’s heard on TV, and he’ll go from one point to another unrelated or nonsensical point very messily and often with increasing visible frustration at trying to get his thoughts to line up.
• He has tics related to schizophrenia that also coalesce with the themes of his psychosis; they usually include: rubbing or scratching his face/arms/hands, pulling his hair, and grimacing and chattering his teeth. He’s confused and irritated by questions about them. Other, relatively controllable, yet repetitive behaviors include: cutting or burning himself with knives and lighters, picking at his wounds and licking them, growling, and hitting himself.
• He very rarely has visual hallucinations, but often hears hushing, laughing, or rattling under the floor or from the walls, and feels a ‘moving’ sensation under his skin trying to get out through his veins. Occasionally he goes fully silent and unresponsive for days at a time, mentally reliving murders and events he finds significant.
• Smile Dog is the only thing he regularly interacts with, and for the past eight years he’s adopted gradually more animalistic behaviors and instincts. This somewhat coincides with his progressive blindness, although it falls in line just as well with his psychosis. He approaches other people very aggressively and doesn’t hesitate to grab them or pull them around, or lean against someone to smell them. He’ll pat someone down and grab their face or hair to pull them as close as he needs to remember their scent—though usually only someone who’s scent he can’t place right away—to which the usual reaction is to freeze and silently wait for him to finish (and withstand the smell of rot and bile emanating from him.)
• he just loves to manhandle people in general it’s like his favorite thing. He tends to treat living things, other proxies included, the way he treats a corpse.
• All his homies hate him

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